Meet Me!! :)

who am i??

start with capital letter "J" for Johannah :)

full name??

Johannah Marie Fornis Loterte <3

-my past life-

you can say I'm so stupid, stubborn and naive.

I've done so much thing in my life that till now I'm regretting.

there are the times that i found myself laying on my bed,crying

 and sometimes i freak out! only wanting to release it out..

I always ask myself.. why all those things happened to me?

why everything turns out wrong when I only wanted is to be HAPPY!!

in a sense that i came from a broken family..

and all i want is to be whole., feel happy and free even just for myself.

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and now...

i can say i'm different., 

 physically,mentally.. but not emotionally.

there's lots of changes happened to me,

but still i feel like i'm stuck with my old self.

still BABY..always wanting my mama to cuddle me up whenever i cry.

but i end up sitting in the corner of my room., 

hugging myself, and cry.. cry.. and cry..

till i have no more tears to fall.

BUT HEY!! CHEER UP!

i realized, i don't want this kind of life.. forever.

i want to change!!

and so i did!

i tried to be happy, friendly, easy going, and open minded.

there! i always cover myself with SMILING.

talking great things.

it's no use, i guess. cause even though i tried all of this.

still nothing.. and i said,"i need to be with myself."

well.. at least when someone hates me for what i am,

the hell i care! WYSWIG!

-what you see is what you get!-

i may be meeting different kinds of people, and make them part of me

or me part of them.. well ,they have me as what i am. with NO MASK!

i'm now enjoying my new life, new home, new family and new friends.!

and hope to find my new love :)
ayee :) haha


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