--say something--

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although sometimes i'm a loner.,

still i know how to enjoy my life.,

like hanging out with friends after classes,

drinking alcoholic drinks and get drunk!

cutting classes, and get busy with some other stuff

and forget 'bout studying for exams and etc..

its a teenage thing! i guess.

and i found it so FUN despite of knowing that it can affect my

studies..but its ok., cause i've learned lots of things

and i'm being aware of it.
( dati ganun ako, pero nag bago na :) )

i signatured myself as

"ANGEL XOO DARK"
or
"ANGEL SO DARK"

cause i feel like i have two souls inside me.

the angel side and the devil side.

i'm a sweet, loving, caring and i tried my best to be the most

patient girl that ever existed in this world..

but i cant!!

i easily get pissed off, i easily get bored.. and sometimes i just can't control myself.,

like, i say things to others that hurts their feelings,

and let them think that i don't really care if they're hurt or not,

and the worst thing is, i let them feel that i don't give a damn care to them

like i dont even know them..

but at the end of the day., i am not happy..
knowing that i hurt someone's feeling...
day after that., i say sorry :)
i really have a mood problem :) i knew it.

soo.. that's all :)
it's just me and nothing more :)

Meet Me!! :)

who am i??

start with capital letter "J" for Johannah :)

full name??

Johannah Marie Fornis Loterte <3

-my past life-

you can say I'm so stupid, stubborn and naive.

I've done so much thing in my life that till now I'm regretting.

there are the times that i found myself laying on my bed,crying

 and sometimes i freak out! only wanting to release it out..

I always ask myself.. why all those things happened to me?

why everything turns out wrong when I only wanted is to be HAPPY!!

in a sense that i came from a broken family..

and all i want is to be whole., feel happy and free even just for myself.

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and now...

i can say i'm different., 

 physically,mentally.. but not emotionally.

there's lots of changes happened to me,

but still i feel like i'm stuck with my old self.

still BABY..always wanting my mama to cuddle me up whenever i cry.

but i end up sitting in the corner of my room., 

hugging myself, and cry.. cry.. and cry..

till i have no more tears to fall.

BUT HEY!! CHEER UP!

i realized, i don't want this kind of life.. forever.

i want to change!!

and so i did!

i tried to be happy, friendly, easy going, and open minded.

there! i always cover myself with SMILING.

talking great things.

it's no use, i guess. cause even though i tried all of this.

still nothing.. and i said,"i need to be with myself."

well.. at least when someone hates me for what i am,

the hell i care! WYSWIG!

-what you see is what you get!-

i may be meeting different kinds of people, and make them part of me

or me part of them.. well ,they have me as what i am. with NO MASK!

i'm now enjoying my new life, new home, new family and new friends.!

and hope to find my new love :)
ayee :) haha


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